Sometimes I let my emotions get the better of me. I admit it. I let my mind be hijacked and I say or do things I’m not very proud of. I tend to be a somewhat outspoken person to begin with but this is not what I am talking about. What I’m talking about is how I let anger or frustration bubble up from the depths of me and how it comes out is a chaotic mess that can only ever end poorly. This is a side of me that I don’t particularly like and something I’d like to change. It doesn’t happen often but when it does I never feel good, nor does anyone else around me.
In starting my journey towards living a happier, healthier, more fulfilling life this was one side of me I knew I needed to target. I wanted to find ways to help relax my mind and have greater control over my actions. The answer, for me, is yoga and meditation.
I used to practice yoga almost daily years ago. I was totally addicted to the depth of focus I was able to achieve. Yoga, for me, is not about the body at all. It’s about building mental strength and challenging the mind. Unfortunately, I let my day job get the better of me and before I knew it, my job consumed my time and thoughts. Yoga drifted into the past and my mind no longer got the therapy it craved.
I have been out of regular practice for over 5 years now and I’m suffering from the ill effects. I am on maternity leave returning to work in less than two months and now that my son is finally sleeping better I can use my free time to do things for myself, like yoga and meditation! I really should have started meditation a long time ago but like they say, hindsight is 20/20.
I am concentrating on meditation first then plan to introduce yoga slowly. Why? My body is so sore from carrying around my tot that I think my wrists may buckle in down dog. I’m serious. This is a consequence of holding my baby in a poor position for so long that repeatedly keeping my wrists bent have caused some serious pains. I also think rushing into the physical part of yoga may discourage me. I’m years out of practice and my body just can’t do what it used to do at this point. Slow and steady wins the race. I will get there.
So, yesterday I settled in for my first meditation session. Oh, it felt soooo good. And to feed two birds with one seed I positioned myself in the yoga pose called Legs Up the Wall. This posture has some great benefits for the heart, nervous system, and has a calming effect on the mind and body.
When I meditate I try to take my mind into a deep level of focus, as deep as I can go. I choose one word and think about what that word means to me, to others, and how it can relate to my life or how I can bring it into my life. My first meditation word of the day was PEACE. And truly, I felt so rested and at peace afterwards. My baby woke from his nap otherwise I would have gone longer and deeper but I will do what I can. As my mind strengthens through the practice I know I will be able to get deeper into meditation more quickly, I will be able to block out the noise around me, and stop disrupting thoughts from creeping in.
Join me in committing to meditating daily, even if it’s only for a few minutes. Giving your mind a rest of the noise and negative thoughts can make a world of a difference. Namaste.